JonC

So I deleted the story before I posted it, and began to realize that even though I’m 40, and should be past all this, it still hurts, and I’m a deeply broken person.

The thing about trauma (and it likely is trauma) is that it often just doesn’t go away on its own and you need to do work on it. So, why should you be over it?

Should is a loaded word as it pretty much always comes from what you learned as a child. You should do that. You should be like this.

That “should” probably comes from your father when he told you how you should be as a child.

It sounds like you aren’t over it now, but that’s ok. It’s ok not to be over stuff that happened in childhood. But the important thing to understand is that you can get over it with work. Being aware of that is the first step on that road.

Apparently it’s because CrowdStrike installed their device driver as one that must start when Windows starts.

Explained here: https://youtu.be/wAzEJxOo1ts?feature=shared&t=675

I’ve linked to the specific time where he explains that issue, but tbh the whole video is worth watching.

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